2019: Tough Seasons!
Hi lovelies! Oh how I have missed interacting with all of you on here! 2019... where to even begin?! 2019 has been a rough season for me be honest. I’m completely going out of my comfort zone here, but I wanted to be real & transparent with all of you. Many of you know what’s been going on behind the scenes. I struggled with a bout of depression/anxiety last year that really started to take over my life. Thank goodness I got that treated and under control when I did, because soon after I would encounter the most devastating event of my life. Several family deaths back to back this year, one of them being my cousin who I grew up with. She was more my sister and my best friend, we were inseparable since childhood and spoke everyday multiple times a day as adults. Losing my cousin so unexpectedly shook my world to its core. And let me tell you, grief is no joke. What it does to your mind & the waves of emotion that come out of nowhere. I felt like my brain was in a fog. My anxiety came back worse than ever. I was traveling for all of the funerals and to be with family, I became so physically, emotionally, and mentally drained I could barely function with everyday tasks let alone run a business how it should be ran.
After all the travel was over I couldn’t wait to get back and get into my routine. I couldn’t wait to get back to work full time and pour my heart and soul into my business. My business is my passion & art is my therapy. For several months I had been dealing with severe neck pain, I put off treatment because everything that was going on. When I got back to FL I started conservative treatments. Chiropractor, massage, acupuncture, hot yoga, etc. Despite all these things, the pain became worse and started to travel down into my arms and hands. Before I knew it both of my hands were so swollen I couldn’t even text or type emails, I could barely move my fingers or open my hands. I was constantly icing, I would drive to work with ice all over me so I could move my hands to do brows and facials. I tried to save all my hand power for working in the studio on clients. The pain became unbearable, I was falling so behind on admin work because I couldn’t use my hands. (Insert more anxiety 🤦🏻♀️). 2 weeks ago I finally couldn’t take it anymore and went to a doctor. I had an MRI this week and am awaiting results. In the meantime, I have been on heavy duty steroids for over a week(which I tried to avoid for months, but I was desperate) and although there is still pain, I‘M GETTING MY HANDS BACK! They’re still achy but the swelling has gone down SO much and I can type, text, and work! I’ve been dying to get back to work full time! I wanted to share this with you all to explain my absence. For so long my cup was empty, I had nothing to pour out. I had to put my family first. My cousin left behind a beautiful little 3 year old girl. Unfortunately my little Gracie lost her father last year as well. It’s been a very tough season for my family, but things are looking up and Gracie is doing great! THANK YOU to everyone who continuously asks about her!